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20080928

Hee this is wat we ate ytd.. in celebration of ru-ying's bdae.. haha hope she likes oven.. i will b 2nd in line to try her baking.. 1st shld leave it to her family.. haha.. oops.. i wana eat cakes n desserts.. craving.. sobs.. let's hope tues we can realie go for one.. so how was the super uber sour drink i made for u? was it ok for u? sobs.. if u threw it away jus dun tell me.. jus dun even bother replying me when i ask k. jus say no n i will get it.. sobs.. haha..

hmm db's comeback on inki was good... i m falling in love e whole albumm.. e 1st time wasn't as good as i hope.. but as i listen more.. i m liking all e songs... dunno y.. e music is realie nice.. n catchy... haha prolli i m too into themm... stop it! haha.. i can't! actualie i realie look 4ward to family outing.. haha.. i wanna c junsu n yunho n dae sung.. haha.. wonder wat kind of sparks i will get frm there!

1_0 thought hard on 18:58

20080926

Hmmm somethin to ponder abt.. u might b tgt since young... but the challenge is... aft u haf started leading ur own life.. do u still bother to keep in contact? or even leave a simple msg? meet ups will soon b more difficult.. when bgr comes in.. tat tests how strong e rs is.. i wonder.. tat left me w a '?'.. onli time will tell..

Today is supposedli a happy day.. jus tat some weird attitude came 2 me jus this evening.. haha. oh hmm i m still happy cuz i have a vv sweet dream this morning.. haha.. can onli leave it in my dream n not reality.. hhaha.. oh hoooo n of cuz my db's album is out! muahahA!. i nid my crc soon.. arhhhh i wanna buy it! the music wasn't wat i expected.. but the genre is wwwwiidddee! amazingli they r reali tryin al kinds.. haha jaejoongie's rap is cute! shows his versatility... i love them! as all ple ard me noes.. oh tat two songs mention in e earlier post sounds awesome in the cd vs. my hair kinda stand for 노을...바라보다 .. its vv nice song... darn touching.. dunno y i noe some urge.. shall post some more of their songs here soon!

hmmm i wanna do alot of things.. lacking of courage again.. coward me.. feeling moody again.. shucks.. haha .. i m still dreaming of my ideal fri nite.. drinking w frens or jus chill outs.. even a simple fare.. life's gonna b a boredom is it goes on like this...... sobs....

1_0 thought hard on 21:32

20080922

hmmm aft hearing this song...넌 나의 노래 .. i realie love it.. the lyrics r beautiful.. shall do my own translation ltr.. hmm i absoluteli love the acappella at the end.. the perfect harmonisation of my faves! haha.. well 노을...바라보다 is another vv nice melody.. the lyrics i haven figure out yet.. but sureli not bad.. seems like yunnie has be expressing his vocals on ballads.. he sounds darn good these days.. haha.. sorrie.. but if u notice e past him n now its worlds apart in his vocal strengths.. haha.. can't wait for 24th.. full album.. can't concentrate on work tis morning cuz i m craving 2 hear these 2 songs.. since last nite.. n i can't sleep.. haha..

aniwae.. ytd.. i went shopping.. haha.. n had good food.. at wa-ra-ku ma-ri-na.. hmmm not bad.. i forgt 2 take a pic of the 5 peitite icecream i ate.. nice! haha yummy! i like kimenshi? dnno how 2 spell la.. its like flat noodles.. nice..smooth texture.. tat's my mum n dad.. oh the bowl is super big la.. hee.. yummy.. luckily we went earlier.. cuz aft we enter.. the restaurant came alot of other ple n soon.. full... haha.. oh i finalli gt the be-ga / ez-ine card. 10%off frm now onwards.. anione needs it tell me.. they sell quite nice working smart casual there!

1_0 thought hard on 21:35

20080920

haha okie.. i m getting to no life aft work started.. hmmm though i m not busy as i seem like.. cuz i m still in learning stage.. i nid attend mu lan's 101 excel class n beginner class. n start learning concepts frm my colleagues.. sooon i can teach ple excel.. haha they realie noe alllloooottt! kena stunn by their spd! haha.. they were telling me.. now can go out.. go go go.. aft the real work starts for me... no time le.. onli wkend can go out.. n most prob u nid sleep. haha.. challenging..

imagine having a 1hr coffee talk w boss.. cool man.. he explored my tots again.. career mgt n finance.. n wat i wanna do n achieve.. the facets of life.. wat's coming ahead.. foresee.. tat's wat he says. n our job has 2 do tat too.. try 2 take out info n infer frm nos... mayb most prob no ordinary ple will understan e process of my jobby.. i seriousli like my boss.. he is takin me awae frm sch girl mode. i m trying my best to take up speed n get into situation.. 파이딩!

my pimples popped! i tink my face ar.. becomes darn oily in the office.. mus get some stuff to extract it! contact lenses in not advisable! haha due to the fact tat lappie is goona b my life at least for e next few years! okie i apologise to ple for the late info relay. kinda busy this wk.. hope everythin turn out fine! Aniwae.. ConGRatulationS! 루인 씨! shall not say wat's tt for!

hmm i've heard 2 db's songS! turn out hip hoppy but vv catchy! haha i can humm le.. i can't wait for the showcase fam cams.. it wld b darn cool to perform at tat venue.. usualli onli dua pai will perform there.. hope the album turns out better than i wan it to b.. cuz i realie prefer ballads! n hmm jazz!! i wonder how cool wld tat be! hee!!!!! fan girl mode! gg 2 b too tired 2 b fg le! hahacassies unite! n buy their album k! oops i buyin ltr.. when i get my 1st pay! oh thinkin abt tt.. i m thinking wat shld i get for myself w my 1st pay! hahahA! crazy la onli work 1 wk! ciao then~ ooo i like this pic! super suitable for wallie!

1_0 thought hard on 08:18

20080914

wow my wkend has ended.. n tmr is work again.. hmm ple who r stil sching.. haha pls cherish it.. oh well.. i m looking forward to learning more abt my job.. there r jus too mani unfamiliar terms.. haha.. i nid 2 learn them.. soon... pls... bring forward n get me the lappie tmr! if not i will b a honey-mooner.. while everyone is busy doing their work! haha.. dun sound nice at all.. gt some stuff to deco my place abit.. nah.. things tt i might nid 2 use. oh well.. haha.. tot of gettin a box of tissue to office.. hmmmm starting of work usuallie means spending lotsa $$$ cuz u nid clothes clothes clothes.. n shoes... shoes... haha.. i nid 2 cut my expenses next mth if not... it wld b heavy on my pocks.. n hmm i wanna holi next yr.. mayb... feb? i wanna go somewhr where i can do fne tour.. not package.. wanna walk on my own.. relax.. perharps i nid 2 get an off office hr life... hee

1_0 thought hard on 19:43

20080912

wow i survived my 1st day at work w a sexy voice! haahaa. hope my colleagues din haf a bad impression of me.. i can chat more when i m well.. cuz when i m sick my brain tends 2 slow down.. haha.. i mus thank my loveli colleagues who lunched w me n took the initiative to teach me abt excel.. i m an excel idiot! hope what i learnt today will b absorbed n put into use.!

hmmm i mus work hard n reduce the possibility of error.. hope to grow in this job in both personality n knowledge! n i wanna get 2 know my colleagues better..they r nice ple! seem to clique well w each other.. i mus hurry get into the situation! woot!

i m working hard n saving on my leaves soooo that i can...
GO TRAVELLING next yr! whr 2? korea (F&E) japan? australia? depends on how much i've.. mus start saving up..

as for the pic.. i can't resist! waiting patientli for 24th sep!

1_0 thought hard on 22:16

20080909

sick... darn.. jus when i wanna go play 4 startin.. i gt sick! darnnnnn..! started w a bad throat on sun night.. now.. my head is feeling heavy.. i wanna go cash studio! darn..! hope tmr will b fine! i m feeling the pinch spending $ on working clothes.. n they all look kinda similar.. aish! long term invt.. haha.. tat's how i console myself... hmmm not feeling healthy these days... ytd med checkup.. haha i think i realie lack exercise n hmmm nid 2 do somethin abt it.. badminton! whr's our badminton date maine ah!!!! haha.. ok now seriousli.. i nid 2 get well soon.. n plan my weekend walks w my dad.. its for our good! can't stare into e com for too long.. i m getting sleepy again.. though i woke up earli again.. aish...

i wanna eat tat.. i wanna eat korean food... vv long neva eat le... sobs... n i can't eat it now.. sobs...

1_0 thought hard on 11:14

20080907

hee fri was euniceeeee bdae... we had a celebration for her ytd.. hmmm watched wall-e n ate bbq chix.. lastli we had some nice drinks n games at t-c-c.. hmm we played e big fish small fish game.. haha.. we tried 2 attack eunice la.. but onli succeeded a few times... hee.. talking abt wall-e... the story behind is probabli.. asking us 2 protect our env.. n stop being too dependent on robots n technology.. i can't imagine e world filled w ple of tat size.. will reali die of all types of rich disease.. n i tot it was a msg to let e young learn n start to protect e env from young.. it's an approach ba..

oh .. i seriouslie hope eunice will like tat milk tea i made.. it shld taste nice ba.. haha.. cuz i tot she likes milk tea mahhhh... haha.. hope she will b fine! haha.

1_0 thought hard on 10:15

20080904

oh man... man man... hot! i wanna hear e full album.. i can say.. they r changing the style of the promo song! wonder who leaked this.. but wonderful! .. haha they r moving w the flow of e industry n less smp plssss... btw.. i suspect tat's 2 songs.. there's a 35sec one.. which is one song onli.. haha!haha!i m soooo sorry.. e link died! haha shall wait patientli for e whole album to b out!

1_0 thought hard on 15:19

20080903

define the colors.. what u do look for utimateli when u retire..? wat is e thing u want now? hmm someone asked me this.. wat u wan ur ans to be when u look back at ur life when u retire? interesting.. u wan lotsa wealth? or wld u life satisfaction in life? i kinda like this person qtn n his reasoning to me.. it allows me to think alot.. n hmm explore more abt myself.. yeah it is indeed true tat at this stage wat do u c urself in future as n wat u wanna to do now.. so dun deviate frm ur dream n ur desire.. hmm u might face changes in ur goals as u grow.. n learn more abt being an adult.. but still think hard on wat u wan.. n dun b blinded by temporary discouragement frm ple tat ask u to wake up frm ur dream n face reality.. reality is made by us n it is controlled by us.. loook at the details of wat u wanna fill ur life w n not things tat u can't achieve n blame it all to reality..

what kind of person u r? a person tat wanna improve ur weakness or someone tat wanna strengthen ur strengths? which comes 1st can determine wat type of person u r.. i wanna improve my weakness b4 gg on 2 strengthen strengths.. wonder wat kind of person will i b reflected. hmmm live life as a journey tat u continue learning new things n oso learn abt the past tat u might haf forgotten.. it is impt 2 reflect on e past n strive to excel w/o repeating mistakes of the past. yea ple will clean up ur buttocks but u've to learn to reduce error.. dun look bac n say shucks i made e same mistake again.. y did i do it?

hmmm wat wld u like to c urself when u grow old.. prospects change n hmm i was listening 2 news this morn. this guy was saying.. i m looking back on wat my life has filled w n not wat i haven done. tat's e satisfaction i gain.. haha tat is bcuz he has grown to a certain age. as for me.. i shld b filling my book will lotsa chpts n start reading wat i haf filled up till then.. so wat do i desire? wealth? satisfaction? love? happiness? adventures? hmm put thoughts into action tat's wat i shld do now..! let's go!

tat's jus a lil recap of wat went on for 1hr of my monday! actualie i kinda like his chat w me.. cuz it makes me feel.. life is not abt blinding urself but look at wat u wanna achieve n wat u wanna c urself in when u retire..!ytd's went on quite smoothly.. but somehow i feel... lotsa ple r vying for e same position.. my chances not vv high.. but who noes? hee.. i wanna get at least one of them.. if not i might wait for the reply of co T. i m not rushing but staying free is nice but toooo slacky!

I wanna congrats everyone for a successful GRADUATION! yeahoo! we shall meet up soon!7ps!

Ps: wat comes aft rain is the rainbow tat brings tears of joy!

1_0 thought hard on 10:21

20080902

Yeah! i passed my b-t-t! n took my prov dr lcs. haha guess wat.. a korean lady was sitting beside me during the test.. i realie wanted 2 tok 2 her la.. but we r suppose 2 b silent! haha.. oh i m proud 2 say i was e 1st one 2 walk out of the room! haha.. cuz i did e test pretty fast.. yahoo! haha but it isn't somethin to b proud of la.. nuttin better 2 do..

ooot.. another interview ltr.. wish me luck.. shall b bac 2 post abt the one i had ytd n today ltr.. i pretty much learn alot more abt ple n characters in diff interview.. hmm hope i can get at least one of these two. cuz i haven been sending out resumes..

I suspect results r out today evening or tmr.. cuz they locked the academic profile key.. hmmmm.. scary..!

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The result is out! i shall not b sad.. cuz i expected it to stay tat way.. shit... does it mean more difficult for job hunting.. shld haf paid more attention during yr2.. darn it.. y like tat.. haha.. not blaming la.. jus hope i can get a job soon.. n doesn't bother abt my marks.. hyymph..!

1_0 thought hard on 10:59